Memories from the past

As I free my mind

Go back to what I've done

Will it haunt me again?

Will there be any pain?

And if I want to come back

Help me open my eyes

Tell me how different is it from a dream?

What if I'm not even able to scream!

Closing my eyes to remember what I feel

I'm afraid of my own memories

Can't see a thing in this limitless haze

I'm wandering around in this confusing maze

As I enter subconscious of my unexplored mind

I feel like I'm spinning inside my own head

Tell me is it going to take me somewhere?

Will I ever be able to breathe the air?

Now I'm starting to feel

A rush of blood to my head

Trying to visualize my unknown past

I hope it's not too hard to make it last

Everything seems to be gone

Surrounded by shadows and lights around me

No exit door that I can find

I feel trapped inside my own mind

I see myself like reflections in the mirror

And I don't know what's real anymore

Tell me how long will I have to stay?
Should I ever see myself this way?

I feel afraid to be here and to go back

Haunted by images I see and words that I hear

My body is shaking from what I have to see

And I see blood spattered all around me


I'm holding a knife bathing in blood
I see all the faces that I put to sleep
I feel so afraid, I have to come back
And then all my visions start turning to black

Suddenly I wake up with sweat on my brow

It doesn't feel like a dream anymore

A killer that I was, a killer I'll always be

It was only myself that I didn't see

How to live again when I feel so hollow

So empty and bare knowing the answers

I realize now, when the door is locked and I have the keys

Some things are better left to lost memories